sometimes...

I'm tired.
wiped out.
exhausted.
drowsy.
burnt.
tired of a lot of things.

sometimes its like getting out of bed is a scary thing. but not getting out is just as scary cause i don't want to miss anything important. i don't know why i feel this way. maybe its because there are a lot of changes ahead of me. scary changes. and sometimes i don't want to face them. its like someone who finds out they have cancer and want to live their life to the fullest, never missing a beat or a thought, embracing life. so they decide to go sky diving. all they have left to do is make that step out of the plane. thats it. but something holds you back.
i am reminded of a verse in Joshua ( a few verses actually) that gives me hope and confidence when i need it most.
"I promise you what i promised Moses: 'Everywhere you go, you will be on the land I have given you.
No one will be able to stand their ground against you as long as you live. for I will be with you as i was with Moses. I will not fail you or abandon you.
I command you- be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go."
Joshua 1: 3, 5 &9