sunday doesn't suddenly make me holy

i've been a cautionary christian. always analyzing and especially being skeptical of the movements of god. this is why i need a soul cleansing; to start fresh and renew my body mind and spirit. i've always thought that christians like me who have grown up in good homes wouldn't have any baggage to deal with. "i'm good to go until i do something REALLY bad" i thought. but it's so not true. i've LEARNED faith, not experienced it and because of that, this whole "walking in the spirit" thing has been mostly nonexistent. i've said "show me, prove to me you'll come through and THEN i'll believe you." that mentality has so screwed with my spiritual life. with that said, i'm on the road to recovery and victory! ;)

rad company corrupts bad morals: "I'VE HAD A REVELATION!"

fine dining, good conversation, and excellent company. thank you MARCY PIILANI for the swell friend-date and mexico flag cookie.
if eating food were a love language, it would be mine.
BACK TO ATTENTION:
"I've had a revelation!" I tell Marcy. "I know what I want."
As I spilled what had been begging to come out of my mouth for the past few days to my dear friend, I realized the power of the spoken word and the release of pent up negative energy. I wasn't speaking out a sin, just ideas and thoughts I've been processing about my future life; the introvert in me needed a new release other than my own head. POW! As soon as I spoke it, denial left me and I embraced the fact that the desires of my heart will be met.

Actually, I made it.

Finished my winter scarf.

not too far behind you

the start date for beauty school is creeping up on me. creeping, because it's weird realizing a career is a few months away. money. whaaa?
i suspect it'll be a jolly old time.

Where the Rebellion Lies

monday evening will be filled to the brim with good company making music together. lined up to be in the studio with an old friend.

you know that i love you
you know that i care
but there's a part of me
that i just don't want to share.