My Undies Are in a Tightwadbunch.

Yes yes yes, I know. I'm being a tightwad, and my undies are in a bunch because I'm BUDGETING. But, when I'm faithful and obedient to the Lord in regards to my money, blessings poooooouur out. Blessings like peace of mind, joy, and relationship with the Fatha Of All Fathas. Word.

Adding to the uncomfortable bunch is that a season is coming that I'm going to be active in obedience to the Lord. I'm moving out of being obedient in my heart and agreeing with what the Father has for me to having a heart AND feet of obedience. This is a season of DO.

A season of DO for the Lord so that He can move. There is no way I want to hinder his work, so DO, I will. Word.

A season of living with a heavenly mindset. Word.

Uglaaaaaaaay.

Today the NorthWest has come to dear old little Modesto, California and I've decided to take a break from wedding craziness and process a few things.

How true is it that our heart's intentions can be carefully smothered by our sweet words. How ugly is it that at times, I say one thing just to do another. Notice, that isn't a question. I know the answer. You know the answer. It's uuuuglaaaaay.

Help Lord for the godly man ceases! For the faithful disappear from among the sons of men. They speak idly everyone with his neighbor; with flattering lips and a double heart they speak. Psalm 12:1-2

How can I pass judgement on another when I've got a freaking boo-boo in my own eye? I can. I do. I sin. A lot.

This is what I'm realizing: Life is so much smoother when I'm open about my feelings and issues. I don't feel like I'm hiding anything...you know why?? Because, the freedom from my bondage releases me to live out my identity in Christ. I am who I am in Christ. IN CHRIST! With a name like that to back me up, of course I feel good!

And with that said, I'll end with this:

God give me EVERYTHING you have made available for me and want to give me!

Living Room Chat: The Heart of the Issue

One of the toughest things to do when walking in the supernatural and balancing your purpose here in the physical realm is obeying the voice of the Lord and being okay with not seeing the results. Obedience is followed by knowing that God doesn't
need us to take matters into our own hands to make sure things get done.

This is one of my deep struggles. I'm a Type-A. I form strategies and get the job done all the while striving for excellence and perfection (automatic failure right there)I have reasonable achievable goals and tools I use to see those goals through. It's a good thing, when given a job by the Holy Spirit. But, here's my downfall: When I've done my part-the thing God has asked me to do, I can tend to take matters into my own hands.

WHO AM I!? I don't formulate the plans of God! No! My job is to walk in obedience not to say "Okay God, I'll take it from here, thank you." Everyone has their own reasons for control and here's mine-I don't want to wait. If I wait I think I'll miss my chance. I like to be in control. I need to understand that there's so much reward in waiting on God's timing.

In the season of waiting, there is much refining, and that is important before I walk in the blessing. Without being refined, I will not be equipped for the next season God has formed for me. How stupid would I be to miss out on all of that.

I'm learning to let go of strongholds, I'm learning to let go of the control my flesh desires. It's a hard process!

Reading...

...The Happy Intercessor by Beni Johnson....I can't put this thing down!

Time to Be Honest

Cant get rid of this anxious feeling. It's not too much caffeine, it's not the fact that I'm leaving friends in California. It's because I haven't spent time in the word. i have not had quiet time with the Lord.

How crazy. When you skip a day of scripture reading, the feelings of anxiousness and ultimately sadness literally wear you down all day.

When I skip a day of reading the Word I can NOT function properly. I can't converse, I can't think, and I can't fellowship normally. It's because I haven't invited and opened my heart to the Spirit. It is so important to make a daily decision to invite the Lord to speak to my heart and lead me in the Spirit.

15 minutes of reading in the morning, one day a week isn't enough fuel to keep me breathing for the whole week.

Thank you Lord for your gracious heart.

One, Maybe Two Weeks at A Time

This next week I'm praying for these things DILIGENTLY and for a PURPOSE

That I may know God's heart and our hearts are one
That He give me divine appointments
That His wisdom dwells in me
That He speak to me in every moment
That I walk, breathe, and think in the Spirit
That I have the ability to understand and have Discernment
That the confidence of Christ rise up in me and pour pour pour over
That I can patiently wait...

My Romance is a Steamy One!

I just love having the satisfaction of knowing that God would use a foolish, over dramatic, needy, loud-mouthed human like me to represent his glory! It just goes to show that He has a good sense of humor and a gracious heart.

I declared this quiet Monday afternoon to be my date time with Jesus. Can I just say that no matter how needy or deprived of attention I think I am, God always comes through! I don't even need to be feeling unloved and he'll remind me, "hey girl, I know you feel like a millions bucks right now, but you DO STILL NEED MY LOVE, you butthead!"

Thanks Jesus for keeping it real!
"He who glories, let him glory in the Lord," 1 Corinthians 1:31

At 5:00p.m.-an hour into the date, I feel the presence of the Lord just fall on my shoulders. Physically pressing me forward. I knew the Lord was about to say something, so I waited.

"For the Kingdom of God is not in word, but in power." 1 Corinthians 5:9

"Morgan, my kingdom is here, right here next to you, outside of Starbucks, and in your car when you drive home! I'm in your house, yes you can read about my kingdom int he Scriptures but my kingdom is IN you! It's in you!"

Whoa God, alright God, let me get a hold of myself! This isn't just a "Let's talk about the weather and flowers date," we're getting deep!

If God had a top 10 list of what he wanted believers to do, I think this would be on that list...

HAVE A PASSION FOR THE SUPERNATURAL.

If we believe that Jesus is coming back to take us home after already dying, we can believe that the same power that raised him from the dead is available to us and can encourage wounded hearts, physical injuries, conflicts, and generational curses! We can believe that we can receive words for perfect strangers and then obediently communicate the message to them.
It's like the couple that complains there isn't anymore passion or fun and that their relationship has just dwindled to putting up with each other.
For some, their walk with God has become conditioned, predictable, maintained. In the name of Jesus, I rebuke that from my life!

I don't ever want my romance with God to become predictable! Ever! My passion to know His heart can never dwindle to merely maintaining a friendship. No, this is fiery, deep, dangerously, dangerous love!I want Him to be able to approach me about giving a word to someone in the grocery store!

The only thing I want to be predictable about my love affair with God, is that every single day, he knows he has my heart!