Living Room Chat: The Heart of the Issue

One of the toughest things to do when walking in the supernatural and balancing your purpose here in the physical realm is obeying the voice of the Lord and being okay with not seeing the results. Obedience is followed by knowing that God doesn't
need us to take matters into our own hands to make sure things get done.

This is one of my deep struggles. I'm a Type-A. I form strategies and get the job done all the while striving for excellence and perfection (automatic failure right there)I have reasonable achievable goals and tools I use to see those goals through. It's a good thing, when given a job by the Holy Spirit. But, here's my downfall: When I've done my part-the thing God has asked me to do, I can tend to take matters into my own hands.

WHO AM I!? I don't formulate the plans of God! No! My job is to walk in obedience not to say "Okay God, I'll take it from here, thank you." Everyone has their own reasons for control and here's mine-I don't want to wait. If I wait I think I'll miss my chance. I like to be in control. I need to understand that there's so much reward in waiting on God's timing.

In the season of waiting, there is much refining, and that is important before I walk in the blessing. Without being refined, I will not be equipped for the next season God has formed for me. How stupid would I be to miss out on all of that.

I'm learning to let go of strongholds, I'm learning to let go of the control my flesh desires. It's a hard process!

Reading...

...The Happy Intercessor by Beni Johnson....I can't put this thing down!

Time to Be Honest

Cant get rid of this anxious feeling. It's not too much caffeine, it's not the fact that I'm leaving friends in California. It's because I haven't spent time in the word. i have not had quiet time with the Lord.

How crazy. When you skip a day of scripture reading, the feelings of anxiousness and ultimately sadness literally wear you down all day.

When I skip a day of reading the Word I can NOT function properly. I can't converse, I can't think, and I can't fellowship normally. It's because I haven't invited and opened my heart to the Spirit. It is so important to make a daily decision to invite the Lord to speak to my heart and lead me in the Spirit.

15 minutes of reading in the morning, one day a week isn't enough fuel to keep me breathing for the whole week.

Thank you Lord for your gracious heart.

One, Maybe Two Weeks at A Time

This next week I'm praying for these things DILIGENTLY and for a PURPOSE

That I may know God's heart and our hearts are one
That He give me divine appointments
That His wisdom dwells in me
That He speak to me in every moment
That I walk, breathe, and think in the Spirit
That I have the ability to understand and have Discernment
That the confidence of Christ rise up in me and pour pour pour over
That I can patiently wait...